where are you, my friends?

in this big big world, i just realize that i am lonely..now..where are all my friends go?
some of them are married.well, we're 25..and this is the best age to get into new life!
some of them are busy with their own work, as not all of us destined to be a teacher.
and some of them are just dissapeared when they are at the hometown..
so, who's going to go out with me??!!arghhh!!



(it is like i am trapped in a deserted island..)

cuti yang sangat panjang...:episod 2..

musim cuti sekolah yang panjang,,sesuatu yang amat ditunggu2 oleh semua warga sekolah.termasuklah aku yang telah dan sedang ditakdirkan menjadi guru :)
minggu pertama umpama syurga, begitu juga minggu kedua.masuk saja minggu ketiga, aku sudah tidak keruan.kenapa?aku tidak betah hanya berada di rumah..sekarang aku mencuri masa datang ke cc di simpang tiga ini semata2 untuk mengInternetkan diri aku.bukan aku kedekut untuk melanggan broadband, tapi kedua2 tempat yang aku tinggal (kampung aku n tempat kerja aku) tidak mempunyai 3G yakni kurang berguna lah sekiranya aku melanggan bendalah itu..baik aku cari cc, lagi cepat kelajuannya..
aktiviti aku yang abadi sejak berada di kampung ini selain daripada menonton cd2 Korea yang adik aku sedekahkan, ialah dengan berjalan2 di pantai..tidak lain tidak bukan ialah (jeng jeng jeng)...Pantai Irama, Bachok..(promote nih)

Birthday Bash!!

As I scrolled over my mouse over the pictures of my induction course 2 weeks ago, I realized that I missed to upload those sweet pictures into my blog..





Thank you Ucu, Bieb, Kak Ziemah and Sue for throwing that sweet birthday party to me (although it was 3 days earlier) huhu, and not forgetting our elephant baby, Suhaizan..

cuti yang sangat panjang...

cuti panjang tiba lagi.beserta dengan ribut kencang dan hujan yang tidak berhenti2 pada mulanya..tapi sekejap saja.sekarang hujan sikit2 saja..aku merindui hujan yang lebat.kerana, masa itulah udara lembab dan tidak panas lagi...
aku sangat sunyi..lagu Akon "lonely" yang aku menyampah memang sesuai dengan aku sekarang.begitu juga dengan lagu dikir barat "sedihnya rasa....." aik, sejak bila aku minat dikir barat yang paling aku anti dulu??mungkin masa kursus hari tue..hermm..aku penah dengar orang kata, jgn kita benci sangat dengan sesuatu/ seseorang, sebab mungkin ia akan jadi kesukaan kita satu hari nanti...begitu juga sebaliknya...

al-fatihah...

my beloved father passed away on 22/11/08 Saturday, 5pm..his sudden demise made my family shocked..pls recite al-fatihah..tq

kursus lagi..

buat kali ntah ke brapa, me terpaksa menghadiri 1 lagi kursus..kursus induksi,,yang menentukan cepat ke lambat kita sah jawatan..so, demi kepentingan itu me dengan hati separuh ikhlas datang ke ceruk temerloh ini..dengan satu harapan, agar dapat confirm cepat2...
1,2,3rd day...sangatlah membosankan..penat,,aktiviti sampai ke malam..
tapi jangan jeles ye kawan2, Bieb n Ucu pun ada..n ramai gak jumpa kawan2 yang penah kursus sekali.n tak lupa kawan2 1 sekolah..so, havoc la jadinya dengan kami yang tak pernah mengenal erti Diam ini..haha
anyway, there's 10 more days left..hoping for the best to come..InsyaAllah..

holi+DIE+ing...

in 3 days i should be in my hometown, with my family, nieces and my naughty nephew...yes, thats what i imagine..before the fax come.."induksi di hotel seri malaysia, temerloh"..herm...
i'll be a dead meat..

crash boom bang!!

i am not a professional driver..
i took my license test for 3 times, and after giving some bucks to the JPJ, then i got my P license..but that was 5 years ago..
now, i am a..ehem, good driver..except for...parking!i hate when it comes to parking..
yesterday, i crashed someone's car when i was searching for a parking space at One Utama.as i was too scared and panic, i ran away..((don't do this please!))God might punish me for doing this..
thank God my car only had some scratches..

shop till u drop!!

Last deepavali holiday, I went back to my hometown Bachok..Gunong for precise.. (Where else should I go?) My activity for this time is…Shopping!!!(til the last drop of my penny)..huhu
First, my mother, 2 sisters and I went to shop at Pengkalan Kubur..my sis wanted to buy ‘pinggan-mangkuk’ that never enough for her.wait until her kitchen wardrobe has no space then she will stop,,(words from someone who has less money than her). Me? I just bought two boxers (to wear during exercising at home), a handbag and some cutleries for my home..
Then at night we went to Pasar Malam Wakaf Che Yeh that is opened until midnight. I just lurrvveeee to shop at night..why>?because there is less heat compared to shop at noon..
Bought several blouses as I didn’t buy blouse for quite some time..of course it was cheaper..
And the next night we went there again..and I shop till I drop…

photo story,,,

((all the photos were taken during last week)) teacher rose memang seorang yang suka bergambar lately...:)

policeman...;p

nowadays my life evolved around men in uniforms..
i know a policeman before i know the soldier..how i know the policeman?haha its a very drama-based story..i went to the police station to lodge a report about something,,2,3 days after that a phone call from the police station arrived when i was breaking my fast.
then, he asked about my case.he wanted to know about the incident..he sounded not too formal.then he introduced himself as my 'orang kampung'..well, he said he read my report..
he gave his hp number (in case if the 'thing' happen again).
we met at a very spooky restaurant near BH petrol.i brought my 'kids' together with me as they slept at my house that night..what a messy restaurant..
befriend with a policeman, he is not as 'skema' as i think he is..oh, i just know that he is popular here..they said he is a gangster..hemm...thats why..he is hot-tempered,,but controlled (when he is with me) haha
anyway, i have 2 speed traps and i was about to ask him to settle it..;p

abg army???herm...

for the past 24 years of my life, i didn't really fancy the soldiers..why??because i have bad perceptions towards them..with their dark skin and short hair, they didnt really suit my taste.playboy, "perasan", gatal, social and many other bad attitudes.

but that was before..before i know someone who i never thought he is an army.an army; a job that i thought only for losers.((sorry, i didnt mean to look down on them)) but this is my honest opinion.

he makes me realize the importance of having soldiers in this country..

~however, i still hate his high voice.everything he speaks is like an order.huhu what to do, he used to it~

i'm back..

finally i managed to come back here..and of course, i'm back as a whole new me..
-i manage to forget the past
-i manage to have a new vision
-i manage to get my feet on the ground


i dont want to think of the past..

yay!!!

7 more days to raya..i have already packed my things last night.too early?just couldn't wait to go back home..miss my parents so much..
especially when something makes me down..
~really need to take a break~

another Ramadhan story..

Syawal is around the corner..seems quite lonely especially when suddenly my head lingers on the last year's Ramadhan,, with Arwah..we spent several times, maybe every weekend, for breaking the fast together..he's such a sweet man.just ask him to meet me and tadaaa, he's coming..((its hard to find such a nice man now))
-->tears<---..i hate this,,i'm strong..tears will make me weak..
ok..next..herm,,since Bieb wrote about baju raya in her entry, let me show off mine.haha i always have quite a number of baju raya every year, because i have several kindhearted sisters that will give me one or two or three clothes before Ramadhan.so this year, after counting it, plus several pieces that are still at my tailor's house, i manage to have about 10 baju raya,,including the colors that i dont really like,,but as it is free, so i just send it to my tailor..now i have to search for the matching 'tudung' to go with all the baju raya..((waiting for the BONUS)) thihihi
for the 1st day, i have to wear the maroon one.as it is this year's color theme ((i hate it because it doesnt really suit my tanned skin color,,ehemm)),,and maybe the green one during evening..2nd day, the chocolate and orange one..3rd day and onward, i havent decide yet..
Kak Na wants a handbag and a heel for her daughter (bought it at Sogo last week),,i think i want to give a handbag to my mum ((although it will end in his wardrobe then as my other sisters have given her all the stuffs she needs for Raya))-will find it at Sogo tomorrow, a sandal and a shirt for my Abah,,baju raya for Afiq and Alisha,,and a lot of duit raya for my two adikss,nephew, nieces, cousins and Abah's friends' children..
well, thanks to the givernment as they give BONUS this year,,especially when it comes to festive season like this..we really need to use money..who said money is not important???
Mek and Abah at kampung invited the villagers to break the fast at home today..its the family tradition to hold it every year.but this year they dont wait for us,,only Chik ccomes home this weekend.sorry bah, sorry mexx,,jauh sangat..
now i'm at ampang again,,i just cant hold it anymore, Karak is not suitable for me,,ewahh sounds like i was made in London.but i think KB is much more better than the small tiny little town..err,,susah nak cari jodoh as the residents mostly Chinese and Indian and Asli,,Malays boleh bilang dengan jari..;p
next week i'll go home...aloha Kelantan,,,;p



my companion during weekdays...Nor..


on the way to Ampang every weekend..

doctor fish..

i went to Giant Batu Cave today for an uplifting (or it can be said for wasting my time) while waiting for the evening to come..(its still several more hours to 7.15pm) I'm sure you know why..
the first thing that captured my eyes is...tadaaaa...



it's small fish in a big tank..a.k.a Doctor Fish..



the fish are from Taiwan..and it is known as doctor fish because it can 'eat' all your dead skin cells to reveal your 'new' skin.and of course your feets feel softer and smoother..

i'm quite interested actually..as the pamplet says that it can:

1)improve your blood circulation
2)as a relaxation/ therapy
3)improve skin texture
4)soften and smoothen your skin
5)remove dead skin cells


i tried it for 15 minutes=RM10.00

the fish were very naughty, it circled my feets and bite it softly..(ada rasa geli2 gitu) ;p

5 minutes after that, one guy came and put his feets in the water tank.most of my fish went to his feets,,(sah kaki dia lagi power dari kaki aku) hahahahaha (jahat gile..)

15 minutes after that...


yes, its true..my feets are soft and smooth))

reunion+majlis buka puasa..

8 tahun tak jumpa,, macam tak sangka dapat jumpa balik,, i miss u all :)

i want...

i want...

1) ice-blended jagung at meranti, UTM-miss it like hell
2) an accompany/ accompanies for breaking the fast
3) an air-conditioned room for me to take a nap after school
4) a new cane, as mine is broken into 2 already
5) a bigger table for my stuff
6) disciplined students or at least listen to my lecture
7) a new place for me to start a new life...bored to death :(


happy fasting to all of you!!!:p (me having a lalalala time)

my good old friends...

my bestie elly called on Saturday, telling there will be a small gathering of x-kt,,break the fast at taman melati, gombak..at a steamboat restaurant..steamboat???yess, i like..then i'd agree to go.
me and elly were among the latecomers..they were already there.8 years ago was the last time i saw them..now they are all growing up, some are newlyweds, some have just engaged..and the most relieving thing is, most of them are singles!! yes, im not alone..
most of the girls are beautiful, so do the boys..very charming.
they are all are successful now, have their jobs, cars and even families..(Nini brought his 1 year old son)..i cant believe my own eyes..her son is so naughty, i wonder when will i have one..haha
((the worst thing is, my phone was out of battery, so i didnt have any photos of it)) damn..


((photo was taken right before the function))

jual mahal..

someone says, 'jual mahal sikit dengan lelaki boleh buat diorang lagi gila dengan kita'..is it so??
maybe,,,tapi jualan yang terlalu mahal boleh membankrapkan...haha


((suka sangat dengan gambar nie,,saja letak))

Oh Ramadhan...

Ramadhan seems to be cool for me..don't have to rush to the canteen, don't have to think about what to do after school..as the answer for the latter question is TO SLEEP..
then i will cook what my heart wants me to cook..ehem, yang aku tau masak je la..

yesterday invite kawan2 buka kat rumah..hari sebelum tue buka kat rumah Ila..rasa best sangat buka ramai2..

hari nie tak tau kat umah sape lagi..esok kat umah Lisa..
herm,,pagi2 lagi aku dah rasa lemah..huwaaa

matter of heart II..

hearty hearty inside,,why are you so fragile?please don't bother about it anymore.there are a lot of things that are more important than it..

pre-ramadhan entry..

school is cool, when the boss is not around..things are going on smoothly and i dont bother at KB or HOP or the boss anymore..
there is more important things to think about..e.g. this coming Ramadhan..now i start thinking how will i go back alone this raya..how scary it might be..
need to find an accompany really soon :)

they are here...

both of them are already here in KL.i'll see them tomorrow.there's something we need to dicscuss, they say..
tomorrow at 11am..i'll pick them up..entertain them.they said they are here because of me..they are just as kind as their late brother..
zia ullah, i really miss you...

teacher stories??noo...

my brother said he was bored when me and his wife (my sis-in-law) talk about our schools..he will say, "huh, cikgu..takde benda lain ke nak cerita?balik2 cite student, cikgu ni, cikgu tuh, pengetua, bla bla bla..."
so we made conclusion that he doesnt know and doesnt understand our unique profession..
same like us when he talks about tenders, jabatan perhutanan, money etc..huhu
anyway, i managed to get rm200 from him before going back to Karak..(pau..pau)

~broke to death~

life as a teacher..

as a teacher, school holiday is a very important event that we (me and my colleagues) wait and cherish for..but please dont think we are lazy..because our profession is always a very fun, challenging, full of actions etc, we are very grateful and enjoy it very much.despite the gangsters wannabes and twisted congested brain our students are, we always have something to talk and laugh to..
and that makes the twisted KB and the geng have unpleasant feeling towards us, especially towards me,,why?i'm not sure..maybe because i am carefree, i talk and laugh whenever and wherever i feel i like to..maybe they think i dont deserve that because i'm new.but..who cares?i'm using my own mouth right??hermm...
i like this profession..i have a lot of free time,, and i waste it with sleeping and watching every single CD (especially Korean dramas) over and over again..
i need to change my lifestyle..(konon)..i'll watch Hindi movies instead of Korean...hermm

school matters..

the HOP asked me whether i had finished the literature syllabus form 4EA last year (now 5EA)..it kinda weird question.of coz i finished it..then the HOP said the class result is so bad when they were tested with form 4 literature topics.
what the hell...why dont u blame the current teacher???oh, u think u can just shift the blame to someone else???what the f***!
yes, i had checked my record book last year, and i did it! i even asked the 5EA students and they said i had finished the syllabus..
and the thing that makes me mad is...a friend of mine said the HOP and the current 5EA english teacher said something about me after i left..

i am not satisfied..i need to see and slow talk with the HOP before she continuously think negative about me...( i know the crazy KB told her something not good about me and she seems to believe it)

(i need a assassin to kill the KB..anyone??)

matter of heart..

what can you do if there is something that you cannot let go and it keep bothering you until your heart feel a little scratch here and there??
oh what a heartache..sendiri yang cari masalah..

starveee....(padan muka)

after counting days to Ramadhan, it happened that i still have several days left to be replaced..(ganti posa)..so today after several days of delaying, i manage to fast although my alarm didnt wake me up for 'sahur' this morning..ishh..
and now..at 11 something, not even half of the day, i've already feel like dying..my stomach feels so empty and it 'krrrrrr'..my body feels weak. my head seems to blow up.wahh its been a very long time since i fasted..
have to wait for 7 more hours to break the fast..God, help me..
maybe i'll just go back and sleep til marghrib..

moral of the story: (fill in the blanks) huhu
~padan muka aku~

.....

it's weekend and me have no idea whether i need to go out and have fun or just stay at my house doing some cleaning.at last i choose the latter..friday seemed to be cool.but at night some "boringness" feeling came..tried to overcome it..
saturday morning..woke up at 10.45am..huh, a record..too bad for a girl..my eldest sis called and asked me to come.there's something she wanted me to do.aghhh, mission failed again..

now i'm at my sis house in Ampang,,doing some YM with Arwah's sister.i was asked by his sister how much i miss him..such a hard question to answer.of coz there is no A to D options to be chosen..

anyway, his two brothers are coming this school holidays.i thought it is cancelled.they had already confirmed the passport..they come to see me.just to see me.suddenly i feel so....i cant think for the right word to decribe my feeling right now..
anyone, please help me..

LOVE matters..

a friend of mine gave me advice about love.she said LOVE is not as important as we might think when it comes to marriage/ seriuos relationship..i know what she's trying to say. It takes more than love to start a serious relationship..e.g money, career and etc. She also said that LOVE can easily come and go..it makes me think, is that so?
As for me, LOVE is a gift from God. Love makes someone grows up. love makes someone learns how to live.. and false love makes someone learns how to survive from a heartbroken and learns something. and most of all, love makes us a better person.
me myself had gone through several false relationship with the wrong guys..but i 'll never lose hope in LOVE. i know someday i'll meet someone who love me for who i am and not for what i have..

The True Me??

The True You

You want your girlfriend or boyfriend to be more relaxed, calm, and composed. With respect to money, you spend whatever you have. You think good luck will definitely be yours, someday. The hidden side of your personality tends to be methodical in your ways - with trouble adapting to the rules of society. You are tend to think about others' feelings a lot, perhaps because you are so eager to be liked. When it comes to finding a romantic partner, you base your search on information from your friends.

Who's The True You?

new schedule..

"Jadual Baru Mulai 23 Julai 2008"

huh..my super duper busy days would be on Tuesday and Friday..no more 'i like fridays'..huhu 6 periods on Friday, i think they're trying to kill me..
last year, the schedule changed almost every month.i taught from BM to Sejarah to Moral to PJ and lastly i get my option, BI..fully BI.at last..

new schedule=new hopes

i hope i could teach well
i hope my students behave better
i hope my boss will understand me better
i hope for better environment

p/s: looking for a better place to stay..

good boy= bad boyfriend?

i read in my fav magazine that good boys make bad boyfriends...so it could be said that bad boys make better boyfriends, right??herm..i think its true..because me once had a bad boy as bf and it happened that he was so romantic..his name is Khairul Amri..i called him AM..(it is his true name, i know he'll never read my blog)..
he was one of those gangsters in my lower form at my hometown. at that time me was considered as one of the best students..i didn't notice since when i like him because we had a fight when we were in Form Two..stupid fight.
when we were in form three, he often stared at me.then we were couple,,dating after school, being caught for dating in the classroom by the dicipline teacher, love letters, presents..it was such a sweeeet memory...
then the relationship started to fade away when i went to the boarding school.why?because he rarely write to me..stupid, right? bad boys writing love letters..just like a Japanese eating sambal belacan.
until now we're still befriend..and he was just a good boyfriend actually.
However, good boys make good husbands..bad boys,,too, but they need more time to grow up and be responsible :))

mission accomplished...

semalam aku sampai awal di sekolah.antara 5 orang yang paling awal sampai..tidak berapa lama kemudian, budak2 suruhan aku yang setia mula menampakkan muka mereka yang boleh dikategorikan "not bad" mengikut mata kasar aku..
aku mengarahkan mereka itu dan ini, ditambah dengan pujian2 dan pujukan2, maka mereka dengan bersemangatnya membuat kerja..aku dah mula berpeluh, berkejar ke sana ke mari..maka aku mengambil keputusan, mengawasi mereka dari jauh...
setelah majlis bermula, tugas mereka semakin ringan...dan aku terpaksa join majlis..
thank God semuanya berjalan lancar...
and one thing yang aku sedar,,keje sorang2 memang best.ikut kepala sendiri je..tak perlu dengar arahan.walaupun semuanya aku handle, overall its very fun..
-abang2 polis yang escort Dato' Liow hensem2 la plak- hhahaha

Chris Brown-With You

i just lovveee this song..

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight

Hey lil mama, ooh you're a stunner
Hot little figure, yes you a winner, and
I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class of your own and
Ooh little cutie, when you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart and
I'm so glad that you're mine
You are one of a kind, and
You mean to me what I mean to you
And together baby there is nothing we won't do

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Oh girl

I don't want nobody else
Without you there's noone left, and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I cannot wait now
Hey lil shorty, say you care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I will be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
Be your everything

'Cause if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my heart

Oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... Yeah

And I will never try
To deny that you are my whole life
'Cause if you ever let me go
I would die so I won't run
I don't need another woman
I just need you or nothing
'Cause if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And there's hearts all over the world tonight
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
They need their boo
They gotta see their boo
Said there's hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

And oh, I'm into you and
Girl no one else would do
With every kiss and every hug
You make me fall in love
And now I know I can't be the only one
I bet there's hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of their life who feel
What I feel when I'm with you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh(girl)
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you... ohhh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you...
Baby yeah

keselamatan/ disiplin/ lalulintas..

last week aku masuk meeting lambat,,sebab ada kelas form 4ST yang waktu belajarnya tamat pukul 3.20 pm..dan buat pertama kalinya aku menamatkan kelas itu tepat 3.20 pm dengan harapan meeting dah habis n aku tak payah masuk meeting,,(biasa belum pukul 3 aku dah lepas budak2 bising tue)
tapi malangnya meeting baru bermula..n terpaksa la aku masuk.PK HEM pandang aku semacam je.dengan gaya malu2 kucing aku mencari tempat duduk..rerupanya sabtu ni akan diadakan mesyuarat PIBG.
dan aku..ditugaskan sebagai seorang polis trafik merangkap Guard merangkap guru disiplin..dan berita buruknya, guru2 lelaki yang lain yang sepatutnya masuk Team aku tak ada sabtu ni, (exam PSSMI ke apa ntah..tinggal aku seorang, wanita yang lemah lembut ini..untuk membuat semua kerja yang amat kasar bagi aku..)
dalam kelam kabut aku bertanyakan mereka yang berpengalaman..dan ramai yang bersimpati n ramai juga yang ketawakan aku sebab dapat job ni..
aku tak tahu siapa yang bagi idea untuk letakkan aku di bawah team ini..(tak puas hati)
tapi aku dah merancang strategi yang baik bersama2 dengan 12 org budak Kadet Polis yang sukarela nak menolong aku,,10 drpanya adalah budak2 India.mereka memang ringan tulang..nanti cikgu belanja makan ya, kanak2...

computer lab..

sebagai seorang penyelaras makmal komputer, aku sepatutnya berpengkalan di dalam lab itu yang penuh dengan kesunyian..sebab bilik yang sepatutnya aku duduk terletak di antara 2 lab,,and aku terpaksa berkongsi dengan seorang lagi guru lelaki..
tahun lepas aku dah pindah pergi bilik tue, tapi hanya bertahan selama 2 hari..sangat membosankan..
semalam cikgu lelaki tue mengirim salam kepada aku melalui seorang lagi guru pmpuan yang juga guru makmal komputer.baru aku ingat aku belum menyiapkan carta organisasi lab comp yang dia suruh minggu lepas.sepantas kilat aku menaip nama2 mereka termasuklah aku sendiri..penat aku berkejar ke sana ke mari..tapi hampeh betul sekolah nie,,1 printer pun tak berfungsi..

i like fridays...

i like friday..besides from its the Penghulu segala hari, Friday is my free day.i have only 3 periods and usually i will teach my students simple vocabs..they like Vocab lesson because they dont have to think or do any work..so i dont have to chase them or use my cane today..
Fridays, i love u...

kebaikan daun sireh..

aku telah mengalami sedikit ketidakselesaan di "tempat itu" sejak kebelakangan ini..and my colleagues Ila and Lisa mencadangkan 1 petua yang tak penah aku buat seumur hidup ini..maka semalam bermulala acara merebus daun sireh yang telah aku rampok di Taman Sains sekolah aku..
and untuk lain2 kebaikan sireh, maka silalah click di sini.

bengang...

today is not a very pleasant day in my life..two students from 3G had made me angry,i mean very2 angry...yes, i am angry with them everyday because of their laziness, but today im really2 depressed..
both of them didnt want to do the worksheet given.i rotan them twice but they did "lembu kenyang" faces.i rotan them again.this time maybe sebab sakit sangat both of them held my rotan..oh, sangat kurang ajar..
i felt like crying at that time.but i had to hold my ego in front of them..then i was able to pull back my rotan.after warning them about bringing them to the Principal office, then only they did their work.
maybe its my fault coz not being FIRM with them...i've learnt a lesson.dont be too close and too "mesra" with ur students, no matter how good and clever they are..or they will step on ur head then...

Busy Weekend..

4/7/2008
I supposed to ride a bus at 2.30pm..my beloved supir came late.but its not too late.we still had time to eat.then he said he wanted to send me to my hometown.i knew he wanted to follow from the beginning, but i didnt know he really want to do it..CRAZY idea.but i dont know why i like the idea.haha at last, we went back to Kelantan together..and the hard-to-get ticket, burn begitu sahaja..huh

5/7/2008
Diya's wedding..sangat meriah.i really like Kak Sima's dress (all white)..so nice..(berangan nak pakai baju tue jugak nanti wedding) haha
HAPPY WEDDING MEXX!!!

Naa, Yan and Bieb datang gak..the worst thing is, i left my camera in the car..my supir dah pergi ntah ke mana..huaa ambik gambar sikit je..hemmm
then, round kelantan with supir..came home late..


6/7/2008
went to take supir at the hotel, then went back to Karak..the shortest holiday, tak puas rasanya balik rumah...he drove all the way to Karak.best rasanya ada supir.me jadi madam je kat tepi.he didnt allow me to drive..

all in all, i still dont feel secure about him.should i make it further??he's just too nice and sensitive..he knows me well.i can't lie to him..ahh i dont want to think about it now.my mum said i'm still young...young?????i dont think so..huhu just go by the flow..i still have more things to think..

lazy, crazy me..

yesterday i didn't go to school..felt a little dizzy and a lot of lazyness in my body and mind..i wanted to wake up but its so hard to leave the fluffy bed..finally..went to the clinic and took an MC.as easy as ABC..(jgn amalkan)
then i went to KL with AHA..he went to pay his car loan and everything.i just accompanied him.after 2 hours then he sent me back.he is a lot more crazy than me..

i'm angry...

Sunday,last two days..this one guy had talked bad things about me,,in front of me,,to my 'bestfriend'..(of course i dont know their language)..if not for sure there should be one or two bumps at his head..eee geramnya aku..
i thought women je yang tau cakap2 belakang nie..but this 1 guy really annoyed me..then all the stories came out.he really doesnt like me from the beginning..i dont know why,,maybe he's jealous,,over something he couldnt have..Whatever..he's not an Important person in my life anyway..
((i shall never meet or talk with him anymore))

Bo...ring....

i think my life is so boring..this small town just doesn't belong to me..i love my students, i like to teach them..but the problem is im getting so bored with the environement, the atmostphere, the tone (Literary device..huhu) or anything they call it..
or,,maybe its because of something else..there are totally no FUN staying here.i will fill in the Sept transfer form and i'll use the Biggest CABLE to move myself from here..
Yeah, there is one guy who said he can help me (his in law is someone at KPM) but it costs me about 2k. well, you know, the word HELP in this era...huhu
whatever it is, next year i hope to see myself in a new, better place..hope so..

Ranjit: episode 1

there is one talkative, attention-seeker student in Form 1D.his name is Ranjit..No, i'm not teaching him.my friend, Nor is his class teacher (Nor sits next to me in the Bilik Guru).
everyday Nor will tell stories about her class, especially Ranjit.last month Ranjit cried because his two friends accidently pushed him and hurt his legs..from the way he cried i thought his legs broken into pieces..
and two weeks after that, he walked here and there with his Red PSS new vest (Yeah,, just to seek attention) and acted very busy with a pen and a paper.last two weeks he started to wear spectacles..like usual, to show it off he wear it on and walk here and there, especially in front of his class teacher.one day he wanted to ask questions and Nor asked him to come in front.He used his spectacles to show the question (Nor was so irritated with him) haha
However, the attention-seeker still comes everyday to her table, only to ask not-so-important things or just to say Hi..
and last week, he came to me and ask,"Are you Miss Aw Wai Fong?" I was speechless..Then i get so mad and ask, "You tak nampak ke you buat2 tak nampak?? I am a Malay.Aw Wai Fong tu kan Chinese!!"
with a snail-face-look-alike he went away...
((Geramnya aku))

bahana petrol naik...

kerajaan sekarang memang macam2..di kala aku yang miskin ini sedang bertatih menaiki tangga, tiba2 tangga tue semakin tinggi dan tinggi plak..ewah apa aku cakap nie..
sebagai seorang yang kurang pandai berjimat cermat, kenaikan harga petrol yang menggila ini memang aku rasai..kalau sebelum ini kalau aku nak gi KL, sesuka hati je aku akan menekan minyak dan terussss sampeii,,tapi sekarang..aku rasa macam nak kembali mengayuh basikal..dan semestinya aku akan kata sebagai exercise untuk menurunkan berat badan..huahua
namun aku seorang yang Kurang Rajin.nak mendaki tangga ke tingkat 3 pun aku dah membebel, apatah lagi nak mengayuh basikal..so, apa yang termampu aku buat ialah..mengurangkan pergi ke hulu ke hilir..dan hanya bertapa di rumah memutarkan CD dan mendengar lagu2 baru dan lama..
apa yang pasti..aku bukan jenis yang betah tinggal di rumah..dan..hujung minggu ini..sekali lagi aku akan ke KL..
aku memang aku..tak kira sebanyak mana petrol naik harga..(hampeh)

waterfall...

sometimes we need to get out and have some fun..thats what i did last Sunday..5 of us went to Lentang waterfall...the water is so cold.we really had fun there.

back at school...

now i'm at school..wake up so early today,,but felt so sleepy..before 7am me already in my car..betapa semangatnya aku hari ini.sebenarnya nak berebut parking..haha sayang kat keta konon..
nothing much happen today..but one thing for sure, perasaan tak bersemangat tue tetap ada...:(

Ungu-Tercipta Untukku..

so lazy..

today is the last day for our Intel Course: Version 10..this is the most unforgettable and the most FUN course i've ever attend.maybe its because of two creatures (namely Beep and Naa haha) are on my side, and we rock on the class together.as the others are strangers to each other they tend to be slower and quiet..
i'm so lazy to go to school..macam berat hati je nak pulang ke Karak..if now ada JIN yang boleh tunaikan hajat aku, satu je aku nak mintak: agar aku dapat transfer dari tempat itu...tapi nak pergi ke mana ye??maybe ke pinggir bandar KL :)

go green..go girls..

Now me, beep and naa are attending an Intel course at ILTC Lembah Pantai,KL..since last year i hoped to attend a course somewhere in KL so that i can see him(arwah)often.but only 2 weeks after he passed away then i get the letter.herm nasib la..
Actually i've already attended this course last year at Kuala Lipis.but it was conducted for KH, BM, and Pend. Islam teachers..The principal accidently put my name to go for it..(i think he didnt read the letter carefully).
i tak kisah pun.and i think this course is better than the former course.although the former course i attend for sebulan, but the input i gained less than i gain it here.maybe its because of the person in charge.huhu
Here we are working on our topic which is Going Green...fuh, dah nak siap.oleh sebab aku bukan pencinta alam yang sebenar, maka aku tak ada perasaan dalam mendalami topik ini.
mungkin ianya adik beradik Green Goblin..:p

happy...:))

last nite i've dated someone i like for 4 years..(dah jadi "janda" nie, kena la banyak berusaha untuk berjumpa n mengedate men ;p )..back to the story,dia tau aku minat dia, tapi dia selamba je..cehh,,haha he seems so cool, buat banyak lawak bodoh..i was so comfortable with him.seems like he grows up a lot..
dia blanje makan kat one chinese restaurant,,aku "kureng" sket chinese cuisine nie tapi since dia kata OK so aku ikut je..rupa2nya memang telahan aku betul..makanan n minuman dia memang sucks la..hermmm..sabar je la.dahla aku lapar tahan gaban.
he started to tell a story,,and it ended after half an hour..rerupanya he's not a good PENGLIPURLARA..penat aku nak dengar dia habiskan story dia..but one thing yang aku realize, dia memang comel..
aku suruh pakai smart, dia pakai baju sebijik yang bapak aku pakai..haha aku kutuk dia separuh mati..puas hati aku..setelah dia mengutuk aku makin chubby and membesar dengan sihat n kuat..
teman dia shopping jap,,then balik..tak puas jumpa dia :))

its been a while....

its been a while..but i still miss u..
it makes me heartbroken,,but i couldn't do anything about it..
because you are too good to be forgotten..
your face, your smile, your laugh, your eyes, your everything..
are still lingering in my mind..
every second, every minute, every hour, everyday..
and i love to think about you..
but i know, HE loves you more..and i just can't do anything about it..

my flower color...

You Are a Purple Flower

A purple flower tends to represent success, grace, and elegance. At times, you are faithful like a violet. And other times, you represent luxury, like a wisteria. And more than you wish, you find yourself heartbroken like a lilac.

What Color Flower Are You?

i am 25!! and i act like one!

You Act Like You Are 25 Years Old

You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel like an adult, and you're optimistic about life. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences. You're still figuring out your place in the world and how you want your life to shape up. The world is full of possibilities, and you can't wait to explore many of them.

What Age Do You Act?

my element...

Your Element Is Air

You dislike conflict, and you've been able to rise above the angst of the world. And when things don't go your way, you know they'll blow over quickly. Easygoing, you tend to find joy from the simple things in life. You roll with the punches, and as a result, your life is light and cheerful. You find it easy to adapt to most situations, and you're an open person. With you, what you see is what you get... and people love that!

What's" Your Element?

the hidden side of me..:))

The Part of You That No One Sees

You are passionate, romantic, and emotional. You put love first in your life, even though you have often been disappointed by it. You expect to be swept of your feet, and you never expect infatuation to die out. Underneath it all, you are scared that you aren't lovable. Your insecurity has ruined many relationships, as you are unable to see the love that's really there. You are secretly afraid of being alone. Confronting your insecurities is incredibly painful.

What's" the Part of You That No One Sees?

my power color...

Your Power Color Is Gold

At Your Highest: You are engrossed in passions that mentally stimulate you. At Your Lowest: You seek thrills and neglect what's important in your life. In Love: You see dating as adventure and approach it with an open attitude. How You're Attractive: You passion for life makes others passionate about you. Your Eternal Question: "Am I Having Fun?"

What's" Your Power Color?

papeeeee!!!!

hahahaha..so, i get a chance to 'mendajalkn' blog papee yg emberrr ini. papee tuuu...wak gapo tu..

the good old days....

ohh what a precious moment...

"It's All Coming Back To Me Now"-my fav...

"It's All Coming Back To Me Now" -Celine Dion

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bedIf I just listened to it
Right outside the window
There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever
I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made
But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe butIt's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)
There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby BabyIf I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back
There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper
There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever
But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then
But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me

welcome to my blog...

hi..my name is Rose..some friends call me by the name Fid, and my family used to call me T..so, you can call me as u wish to..
so, anything u want to share or write here pls do so..i am more than happy...
:)